just plain tired.....

it's been a long long time
since I last updated this blog
many things have happened
projects successfully carried out
dinners attended
competitions won
sorry I didn't have the time and mood to update

there were and are stuff bothering my mind
just wanna express them here

it's not an easy job
trying to please everyone.
it takes up a lot of mental energy and emotions
there would be times
one side would be happy
but the other would feel neglected
either way
I'll be the one in the middle
handling the awkward situations
putting on a chatty face
pretending as if nothing has happened.

the problem has to be with me
it happened before in school
and its happening again now
the only difference
is that now I have someone whom I can talk to
and to face the problem with
which I am very thankful for

but now I'm getting tired
tired of trying
tired of pleasing everyone except myself
tired of putting on a face that doesn't belong to me

now
I just want to be my happy-go-lucky self again
be happy doing whatever I want
be happy for my own reasons
be happy around the people I care about
can anyone help me do that?

lights off !!!

save the earth....lights off tonight!!!

I'm back~~

sorry for neglecting this blog...
but i've seriously been too busy for the past few weeks...
dint have the time and mood to blog...
but now i'm back!!
still don't have the blogging mood...
but i guess after so long i have to write a word or two here...

what have i been busy with for the past few weeks?
let me see...
i stopped blogging since last december...
had to ganti balik everything that happened....
so i'll start with new year's eve!!

New Year's Eve -- 31/12/08
on the last day of 2008,
our POSUM gang initially had a few plans to welcome the new year...
3 absurd plans...

plan 1...which was the most normal plan...
going up to genting(again) to watch fireworks and enjoy the cool air...
this plan wasn't too warmly accepted by some...so plan canceled...

plan 2...this is where things start to get crazy...
jumping into tasik bestari at the stroke of midnight...
sher lynn's idea...impossible right?

plan 3...another crazy one...
run naked around 4th basketball court...
susan's weirdo idea...she only suggested it for herself i think...haha...

3 unworkable plans....
had to resolve to spending new year's eve in UM...
simple plan...
me, udang, sher lynn and voon went to the 2008 sign opposite DTC to see it change to 2009 at 12am...
what a way to welcome new year!!
the UM technicians were so efficient...
at 12am, they were already busy dismantling the "8" sign and replacing it with "9"...
to my surprise, many other students also spent their new year's eve there...
just a simple night but still enjoyable for me...
as long as i spend it with dear friends, doing whatever wherever whenever is still enjoyable!!


1st photo of 2009!!!!

Malaysia Boleh!!!

you thought this was some weird post about malaysia boleh?

no you're wrong...
malaysia certainly boleh last sunday as our badminton players achieved history!!

BWF Super Series Masters Finals
Likas Sports Complex,
Kota Kinabalu, Sabah

this is the first time ever that such an event is being held...
where only the top 8 players in the world are invited to participate...
it offers lucrative prize money and everyone dreams of playing in it...
everyone except weird china players...
don't wanna talk about them...

on sunday...
malaysia had representatives in 3 finals!!
if they could all get it right, what a glorious day it would be for the country!!

and they did exactly what was expected of them...
leading the act was world number one men's singles player Datuk Lee Chong Wei...
he basically demolished Peter Gade of Denmark...
in the 1st set he even led 12-0!!
he was determined to win his first title as top player in the world and he never let his fans down...
way to go datuk!!!


next up was the ever inconsistent pair of Koo Kien Keat-Tan Boon Heong...
i'm watching their match as i'm writing this now...
clearly they have much more understanding of each other now compared to last time...
at least they don't complain and blame each other for their mistakes...
and TBH has rediscovered his killer smashes!!!
they looked relaxed throughout the match and even smiled when they made mistakes...
this no pressure play is what made them win the title...
and tbh's post match interview was so funny...
as he doesn't really know how to speak English,
all the interview questions were directed at kkk...
but he couldn't avoid answering at least one...
so when asked how did he feel after winning,
he said " i feel very happy because this is our 1st champion this year"...haha...
you must be feeling weird as to what is so funny...
but his way of talking and how he looked so shy when speaking was real funny and kinda cute...
that's why i like him...haha...
anyway,
hope that this win will spark a comeback for them as malaysia's diamond pair...
looking forward to much more greater things from them next year...
don't let us down anymore...




last to go on court was our women's doubles Chin Eei Hui-Wong Pei Tty..
the crowd was already bursting with pride after 2 wins but chin-wong pampered them with another title for malaysia!!!
they fought gallantly against the indonesians and earned themselves USD42,000!!!
a big amount of money added to their many runner-up winnings in the past few months...
no wonder pei tty said that she'll have more money to spend during CNY...haha...
well done!!

in the end,
it was a really proud day for malaysia as we have never been so successful in a tournament before...
bravo to all the winners!!!
hope that 2009 will be an even better year and...

MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!

food glorious food~~

went to hang out with my old friends aka my gang last saturday...

started our journey at 5.30pm...
was awfully tired and sleepy...
i drove the whole day la wei...
after fetching udang and voon to ktm at 1pm,
i had to go through the same road again to reach our makan place at night...

never mind...
at last we reached the bbq+steamboat restaurant!!!
there weren't many people as we were early...
quickly went in and started eating!!


the restaurant~~

oops..forgot to introduce the restaurant...
it's situated in seri kembangan...
rm21.80 per person and eat all you can!!
there are loads and loads of food...
seafood, meat, many types of steamboat ingredients, vege, ice cream, fruits...
who can resist food??
we started cooking as soon as we got all our food...
or else gastric juice will start oozing out...haha...i'm being lame...


that's how we cook~~

crab is on the menu~~

after rounds and rounds of eating and cooking...
we finally surrendered...
then we started another session...photo session!!
try to squeeze 8 heads into the camera screen...
and this is what we got..the best one that we could take...


our faces aren't that big after all...haha...

with pui kuan the eldest~~

hsiao wei and poh yeng...

zi wei and doctor in the making, ngan shan

hsiao wei with conning~~

all of us~~

after all the photo taking and chit chatting,
it's time to go home sweet home...
guess i wasn't in the mood to socialize anymore...
i was really tired and there's something bothering my mind...
but all in all the dinner was a good gathering for our gang before class starts again...
LOVE you girls so much!!!

tagged by susan....

never done this before...
until susan asked me whether she can tag me...
i was like "huh??"
didn't know what's going on...
so here goes~~

A. Attached or Single?
= single...nobody wants me...haha =

B. Best Friend?
= have a whole bunch of lunatic friends...but who's my best friend? =

C. Cake or pie?
= cake of course! =

D. Day of choice?
= any day as long as it's not boring =

E. Essential item?
= my laptop i think =

F. Favorite colour?
= different color for different things...no specific favourite
but i kinda like black... hehe =

G. Gummy bears or worms?
= ermm...gummy bears =

H. Hometown?
= KL =

I. Favorite indulgence?
= sitting in front of the laptop doing whatever =

J. January or July?
= january...does it matter? =

K. Kids?
= had many back when i was teaching...none now *relieved* =

L. Life isn’t complete without?
= my family, lunatic friends, fun and excitement!! =

M. Marriage date?
= sorry...i don't look into crystal balls =

N. Number of brothers and sisters?
= only one younger brother who is sometimes annoying =

O. Oranges or Apples?
= apples...except if someone peels the orange for me...hehe =

P. Phobias?
= err...can't think of one now =

Q. Quotes?
= no specific quote...anything meaningful will do =

R. Reasons to smile?
= do we need one? i can smile for no apparent reason : ) =

T. Tag 5 people
= no thanks...i'm kind...hehe =

U. Unknown fact about me ?
= that's for you to find out...haha =

V. Vegetable?
= i eat most vege...'mom says it's good for health' ...haha =

W. Worst habit?
= not looking at the person when talking? =

X. X-ray or Ultrasound?
= huh?? =

Y. Your favorite type of food?
= favourite is not enough to describe my love for food =

Z. Zodiac?
= pisces =

用心去想.....

这封email之前看过几次都没什么感觉，应该是没有认真去读吧...
刚刚再看多一次，认真去想，觉得每一句都蛮有道理的...

一
　 如果我们之间有1000步的距离
你只要跨出第1步　
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
　　
　　
二
　　通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
　　才是真正爱你的人
　　
　　
三　
　　付出真心　才会得到真心　
　　却也可能伤得彻底
　　保持距离　就能保护自己
　　却也注定永远寂寞
　　
　　
四
　　有时候　不是对方不在乎你
　　而是你把对方看得太重
　　
　　
五
　　朋友就是把你看透了　还能喜欢你的人
　　
　　
六
　　就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie
　　
　　
七
　　真正的好朋友
　　并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
　　而是在一起　就算不说话
　　 也不会感到尴尬
　　
　　
八
　　没有一百分的另一半
　　只有五十分的两个人
　　
　　
九　
　　为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
　　为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
　　为你的难过而难过的
　　 就是那些　该放进心里的人
　　
　　
十
　　 冷漠　有时候并不是无情
　　只是一种避免被伤害的工具