just plain tired.....

it's been a long long time
since I last updated this blog
many things have happened
projects successfully carried out
dinners attended
competitions won
sorry I didn't have the time and mood to update

there were and are stuff bothering my mind
just wanna express them here

it's not an easy job
trying to please everyone.
it takes up a lot of mental energy and emotions
there would be times
one side would be happy
but the other would feel neglected
either way
I'll be the one in the middle
handling the awkward situations
putting on a chatty face
pretending as if nothing has happened.

the problem has to be with me
it happened before in school
and its happening again now
the only difference
is that now I have someone whom I can talk to
and to face the problem with
which I am very thankful for

but now I'm getting tired
tired of trying
tired of pleasing everyone except myself
tired of putting on a face that doesn't belong to me

now
I just want to be my happy-go-lucky self again
be happy doing whatever I want
be happy for my own reasons
be happy around the people I care about
can anyone help me do that?

lights off !!!

save the earth....lights off tonight!!!