Sunday, March 29, 2009

just plain tired.....

it's been a long long time
since I last updated this blog
many things have happened
projects successfully carried out
dinners attended
competitions won
sorry I didn't have the time and mood to update

there were and are stuff bothering my mind
just wanna express them here

it's not an easy job
trying to please everyone.
it takes up a lot of mental energy and emotions
there would be times
one side would be happy
but the other would feel neglected
either way
I'll be the one in the middle
handling the awkward situations
putting on a chatty face
pretending as if nothing has happened.

the problem has to be with me
it happened before in school
and its happening again now
the only difference
is that now I have someone whom I can talk to
and to face the problem with
which I am very thankful for

but now I'm getting tired
tired of trying
tired of pleasing everyone except myself
tired of putting on a face that doesn't belong to me

now
I just want to be my happy-go-lucky self again
be happy doing whatever I want
be happy for my own reasons
be happy around the people I care about
can anyone help me do that?


3 comments:

Shopaholic said...

we'll always be here. all you have to do is tell us your thoughts.

MiCheLLe^-^ said...

if u din speak out
none of us can help..
as duno y i will feel our distances far n far away since v enter U..
mayb u got alot of ting wil feel duno how to tell us or feel tell us oso no help..
but for me..
i jz hope to listen n get to noe
cos i don hope tat my jimui got pro den i oso langsung tak tau..
may..
i believe longtime no ppl call u liktat leh..
haha..
same as longtim no ppl call me hsiao..
but i wil feel very warm when listen dao dis name..
cos i noe is from u ol..
jiayou la may (",)

conning said...

hsiao,i called may no longer ago only o...
may^^
happy anniversery!!!
10years of friendship...
not easy to maintain^^
but v did it^^
haha
well...
stay happy always ya!!
don make urself too tired o...
u know la,
later u become even ugly ma sei!!
wakaka...
em,
juz 12 let u know,
jimuis r here with u always^^
i 12 meet u all o!!!
muacks...
love u ....